Some People (To Walk A Mile In Your Shoes)

2 Jan

There are people in this world that are truly genuine, nice, good people that would give you the shirt off their back if asked. Even though I was not raised to be this way, and considering the role models I had, it was a surprise that when stripped to the barest part of my being, that is who I am. I have definitely had my share of ups and downs, with life and personality altering experiences, from being abused as a child to then being a teen mom married to an abusive man who’s idea of love was to choke , spit, name call, threatening with guns and knifes,rape me while using bible verses as an excuse to do so , and tear me away from the few family members I had that actually loved me. Yeah I considered myself damaged goods. At times I was able to see the light through the forest and focus on that, finding small pieces of who I wanted to be here and there. Yet for the most part for a long time I was an ugly person. I though God hated me and had turned His back on me, so I did things to numb the pain and made other hurt as much as I was. Then a women came into my life at the lowest point and took on the enormous task of lifting me up.

I would love to tell you her name but I don’t know if she would want to be seen as someone who changed and in all honest save my life. I can see her now giving me the look she does and saying “Now Sarah it had nothing to do with me, it was all God” then she would give me a hug and a squeeze on the hand. So I will refer to her as R. Because of her I was able to see that God did not hate me and He was just waiting for me to come back to him. I was 21 when I finally started getting my life straight. I got a job, I got my license, and I enrolled into College. Now I am not going to claim everything was perfect and I was now an awesome human being, because I was far from it.

I met my current husband while I was rent an apartment from R, and she was so supportive. I am now 28 and I would say I am not where I want to be but I am not where I use to be (KJ52 song quote). I will give you the shirt off my back, and I will starve before I see my children go with out a full tummy, but I still have my hang ups. On New Years Eve I went to church and my Pastor was speaking on a subject I have been struggling with. Not only forgiving those who have done wrong and judged me, but of keeping my mouth from speaking bad and judging others. He said and he is a funny man, to just “put our hand over the persons mouth that is speaking ill of another” Not literally though!!Lol. I started thinking about what he said and I started asking myself if I was poisoning others minds by the words that were coming out of my mouth, and if I was being honest I would say YES. And I am not talking about calling people names or lying about them, I am talking about my gossiping. It’s going to another and saying “do you know what so and so did? ” and then adding on your own spin on things.

There are a lot of things I have changed and grown from because of my Faith and help from R and my husband and my sister C. So for my New Years I repented for my actions and am making an effort to change the less desirable traits I have. Pastor said it best. “Do not speak ill of someone unless you have walked a mile in their shoes. You have no clue what they are going through. And you have no clue what I am going through so just don’t speak ill at all” ending with ” I don’t WANT to be in your shoes and you don’t WANT to be in mine!” This year is going to be a blessed year for all I can feel it. =) It’s A No Fail Season!!

Here is the Song I was quoting in my blog post. Describes how I feel perfectly! Thanks KJ52!


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