A Poetic Introduction to My Next Post “My Disease”

26 Oct

My Disease
by: Sarah Martinez

I want to burn myself

I need to make all the pain go away

I want to cut myself

I need to see the red misery drain away from me

This is my DISEASE

I need to hate myself

This is what has been done to me

I can feel the beast inside

It grows everyday trying to break free

Yes this is my DISEASE

I bend and I break to take away these feeling of hate

that are suffocating the real me

I don’t care if it’s wrong or if it’s right

I just need to try and fight off this disease

The beast from within wants to make me sin

Push away every person that cares about me

Yeah this is my DISEASE

How much longer can I withstand the Darker Side of me

It feeds and it grows on all my insecurities

I just want to get back to where I use to be

When life was simple and I was free

Such naive notions for someone like me

Yes this is my Disease

I’d rather die then let the beast consume me

These verses were suffocating me yesterday and I had to get them out. Like I said before I have some pretty sick shit going through my head and if I don’t get it out, it will consume and take over me. (this was actually written about two years ago)

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2 Responses to “A Poetic Introduction to My Next Post “My Disease””

  1. MrsPicasso October 27, 2012 at 1:43 am #

    I can feel with you.

    …I just want to get back to where I use to be

    When life was simple and I was free…

    so true! me too

    • kittygotclaws28 October 27, 2012 at 12:49 pm #

      Yeah but it seems like the more we know and go through, it will never be that simple again. It also seems like there is always at least one person trying to make it hard for you.

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